I do not have many vices, except for maybe perpetual messiness…but I do have a pretty strong addiction to coffee.
It started fairly innocently. I had a friend in college who was an avid coffee drinker and when I hang out with him we’d usually end up grabbing a cup from one of the coffee carts on campus and hang out and chat. I’d stick to a single cup and while I wasn’t crazy about it, I found the whole process kind of soothing. Kind of like drinking tea with my Mom and Mommom.
But then one semester I signed up for a late class…and when I was in college, I was not a night owl (seriously, have you heard anything stranger?). I knew that in order to survive the late class I was going to have to figure out a system to not only keep me engaged during the class (as a huge part of our grade came from class participation) but also keep me awake enough to drive the 45 minutes home.
And so I began down the dark road towards my coffee addiction only made worse by stints working the graveyard shift at various jobs…a shift I have thankfully shed. However, I just cannot shed the coffee addiction. Every morning, without fail, the first thing I do is head over to the coffee percolator and will proceed to drink nearly an entire pot of coffee as the morning progresses.
I have also become distressingly immune to the effects. Sure, I don’t make a habit of drinking coffee at night but if I did…I probably would not have much trouble sleeping. In fact, some days I think the coffee has an adverse effect on me. I feel like curling up to take a nap….not all the time, but enough times to wonder.
I think the only reason I continue drinking the stuff is fear (oh and the fact I have grown to enjoy the taste). I’m scared to skip coffee as I know that if I do, I’ll get a horrible headache. It’s happened before and I never want to repeat the experience. It was that horrible.
Every morning I tell myself that I’ll stop at one mug. Just enough to get a tiny jolt and to avoid the migraine like pain that doing without can cause. Or, I’ll forgo the coffee all together and drink tea (and I have a lovely authentic Chinese green tea that is quite enjoyable…but every morning I just can’t help myself. I must have coffee.
Have you ever battled coffee addiction? Or another, similar addiction? How did you manage it?